In 2004, my yearning for coming out of the closet as a magical human being living in a magical Universe got to the point that I bought myself a new website. I've always done 'my magic thing' only I've disguised it and turned it into self help techniques, and animal training programs, and all sorts of systems and patterns to help people find that spark within, to live better lives that absolutely run on pure magic as the dynamo behind the scenes, in all ways, in every way. I brought up two children, ran all sorts of different businesses, taught a trick or two to a few million people on Planet Earth and I've learned a heck of a lot about THE REAL WORLD in the process.

Something practical, and something magical. 'Magic wants to dance, it wants to flash like lightning, it wants to play, and most of all, it wants to express itself right here, right now!!! 'Magic is JOY!!!!'Īnd I walked away from it all, I never looked back, and did something else with my life instead. 'I've HAD it with the incomprehensibly IDIOTIC idea that by studying some ancient language for 60 years and spending my days up to eyeballs in dusty scrolls SOMEHOW magic would become revealed! 'I've HAD it with the ineffectiveness and lack of provable results, lack of ANYTHING worth having - you are WASTING my precious time!!! 'I've HAD it with your APPALLING medieval iconography of grim reapers and goats and horn tailed demons and divils and legions and ALL THAT CRAP!!! 'I've HAD it with your stupid, meaningless sigils and BORING, BORING, life draining rituals, and badly put together, headache inducing spells! 'I've HAD it with strapping antlers to my head and stabbing knives into chalices!! I've HAD it with your so-called trees of life - it's a stupid labyrinth you people really need get out of and step into the real world, how about it! In that moment, both my ancestral lines finally came into agreement, entered into a grand conjunction probably for the first time in my life, and I thought to myself, 'That's IT! You have GOT to be kidding me!!! The last time I tried with 'organised magic,' someone looked me in the eye and told me in all sincerity that I would never be able to be a proper magician unless I started the study of Hebrew which would take me the rest of my life. Either the Romany half went on strike because what was being offered just wasn't proper 'magical' in the sense I feel the living magic inside of me or the German half went on strike because what I was being presented with was just so TOTALLY nonsensical, downright illogical and CRAZY, it wanted NOTHING to do with any of that. I have always been strongly drawn to magic.īut the truth is that every time I tried to enter into what there was being offered as 'learning about magic' I just wasn't happy. I can't remember a time even as a small child when I didn't see and hear and sometimes knew things that other people just didn't. So I've had my share of parts conflicts - lol! I am half East Prussian Romany, and half German.

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